Sarah's World Her Way

How does one be alone but not lonely?

I used to be scared to be alone. Spending time with myself and only myself seemed daunting and something that I would avoid at all costs. I would go out of my way to find someone to be with even when it was easier to be alone. I hated going out to run errands or go somewhere I wanted to if no one could come with. When I did have to venture out by myself, I always felt like people were looking at me and judging.

One day as I sat in a coffee shop passing time before a meeting, I suddenly had a realization that change my whole view. I realized that other people are too preoccupied with their own lives to have the time or energy to care about one girl sitting alone reading a book. Now that might seen sad in the whole "we should all care for each other kind of thing," but for me it was relieving.

After that I started going on "dates" with myself, which was weird because it was like I was getting to know me all over again. I learned that I do my best writing when can just sit in overwhelming quietness with only my thoughts to keep me company. I learned that I like people watching and making up stories about their lives. I learned that I love photography and seeing the world through my camera lense to find beauty in the mundane. Oh and I learned that I can't stand loud chewers... like please just close your mouth!